december

Yay, I can sit down again alvin January 22, 2020 - 12:02pm

January 22, 2020: Good news, today is the first day I have been able to sit down without pain since December 23 of last year. For whatever reason it has taken the Angio-Seal in my leg this long to heal. But yesterday and today were the first days I have been almost 100% pain-free while standing, and so far I’ve been able to sit down for a little while, which is a very nice feeling. :)

Slid sideways through an icy intersection

Slid sideways through an icy intersection just in time to see a helicopter lift off from the ground with a sunlit mountain range as its backdrop ... pretty awesome.

(A Facebook post from December 19, 2010, when I lived in Alaska.)

All the time that I’ve cried ... Outside, by Staind

All the times
That I’ve cried
All that’s wasted
It’s all inside

And I feel all this pain
Stuffed it down

It’s back again

And I lie
Here in bed
All alone

I can’t mend

~ From the song Outside, by Staind

Worst migraine headache ever

As a note to self, I had the worst migraine headache I’ve ever had on December 17, 2019. I threw up twice during the event, and fortunately I finally started to feel better after the second time.

The farther you get away from the body, the more you know you

On a drive back to Colorado in 2017 I listened to Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil. In the book, The Lady Chablis talked about how much the estrogen shots affected her, mentally and physically — her thoughts, such as who she was attracted to, and her physical attributes.

I’ve often thought about how our thoughts and behavior are affected by our hormones (estrogen, testosterone, etc.). That’s one reason I like meditation: The farther you get away from the physical body and chemically-influenced brain, the more you can figure out who you are.

A brief conversation with a Starbucks barista, somewhere in Colorado

Brief conversation with a Starbucks barista in whatever town I was just in:

“A grande coffee, please.”

“Room for cream?”

“Yes, an inch please.”

“An inch?”

“I won’t be offended if it’s more than that. I won’t drink it all.”

“Okay. Anything else?”

“I haven’t had caffeine in several months, so that should be more than enough.”

“Did you know that some people get sleepy when they have caffeine? I thought that was interesting.”

“Indeed.”

She leans in and whispers, “Don’t tell anyone, but honestly, I only like to drink coffee on the weekends, and then have deep conversations with friends.”

I lean in and quietly reply, “I like your style.”

~ December 18, 2018