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Is there anything else you'd like to ask me?

I guess I still don’t understand women.

This morning one of my doctors kept saying, “Is there anything else you’d like to ask me?”

After the third time she asked that question I thought, “I’ve seen this in the movies, I know what she’s really asking,” so I replied, “Do you want to come over and bake some cookies?”

Everything after that was a blur ... I think she said, “What?”, and then I think I said, “What??” ... now I don’t know if I need a new doctor or some cookie dough.

~ a Facebook post from July 15, 2014

Stuart Margolin and Northern Exposure

I watched an episode of Northern Exposure recently and at the end of it I was surprised to see that Stuart Margolin directed the episode. I always enjoyed his characters on The Rockford Files and M*A*S*H, and I remembered seeing him on Magnum, P.I., but I didn’t know anything else about his career, including that he was a director. After reading his Wikipedia entry I hope at some point to see the episode of 30 Rock he did with Alan Alda.

Trudy Monk’s poem for Adrian Monk

I heard this poem on this Monk episode last night.

“Hold me, Adrian,
my darling husband.

True love’s touch is so rare a gift.
How much more precious is your caress
who loves so deeply,
yet fears the warmth,
of hand on hand.

Still your love is given free,
only to me,
only to me.”

~ Trudy Monk

Talking to nurses about pain

While laying in the hospital bed after my recent surgery, a young nurse came into my room and asked what my pain level was, on a range from zero to ten.

I replied that it wasn’t bad at all, maybe a one or two at most, and I didn’t need any pain medicine.

She said that was great. She said that a lot of people immediately say they’re at a nine or ten.

I replied that I’d never say anything that high, I always thought a nine or ten should be saved for something really bad, like if you were just stabbed or shot.

She said, “I know, right. Or maybe broken bones ... or a heart attack.” She paused and then said, “Lately I’ve been wondering if giving birth is a 9 or 10.”

Bruce Springsteen on making Born To Run: “We went to extremes”

There is some talk in this Rolling Stone article that Bruce Springsteen was on the verge of failure when the song “Born To Run” was released. Springsteen acknowledges that, but also adds, “I don’t know if it would have finished us — because what the [bleep] else were we going to do?”

I tend to look at that as perseverance: “Okay, you don’t like my work? Well, I’m not going anywhere, I’m going to keep working at it.”

When I first went to college I wasn’t a Springsteen fan at all — I barely knew who he was — but then I heard Hungry Heart, and became a fan. These days Born To Run, Hungry Heart, Badlands, Thunder Road, Pink Cadillac, Brilliant Disguise, and Secret Garden are some of my favorite songs. And Santa Claus is Comin’ to Town is one of my favorite Christmas songs/performances.

According to WebMD, I may be pregnant

According to WebMD, I may be pregnant. Fatigue, nausea, drastic changes in how things smell, food aversions, mood swings ... I've got most of the symptoms.

~ A Facebook post from July 9, 2014, after I had radiation treatment

Feeling like I was poisoned (or toxic shock syndrome, anaphylactic shock, or sepsis)

As a brief note today, when I got really sick in the years 2014-2017, I used to tell my doctors that I feel like I’ve been poisoned. As I learned more, I’d tell them that it felt like toxic shock syndrome, anaphylactic shock (anaphylaxis), or sepsis, because it felt like I was about to go unconscious (pass out, also known as syncope). Indeed, I did lose consciousness seven times.

They all looked at me like I was crazy when I told them these things, but it turns out I was right: I have a rare blood disease named Mast Cell Activation Syndrome, or MCAS. It’s a disease of your body’s mast cells, which are a type of white blood cell. If you have MCAS you essentially have been poisoned, because your body’s white blood cells are reacting to something in the environment — something you ate, drank, smelled, touched, breathed.

If you feel like you have symptoms like these I encourage you to learn more about MCAS, either by following the first link to Wikipedia, or by following this link to my blog posts about MCAS.

Impassioned lovers wrestle as one

Impassioned lovers
wrestle as one

Lonely man cries for love
and has none

New mother picks up
and suckles her son

Senior citizens
wish they were young

~ Nights in White Satin