December 23, 2019:
Nurse at the hospital, as part of a questionnaire: Do you feel suicidal?
Me: Well, I want to be careful with this because I don’t want you to get the wrong idea ... I don’t mind living ... and I don’t mind dying, but this in-between stuff where you’re constantly sick and can’t work or have any fun ... it is ... very frustrating.
Nurse: So ... [long pause] ... not yet?
Me: Yes, that’s fine.