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A feel-good list (for those very sick days)

These days I generally feel very good, but as I go through some of these medical treatments they can make me feel pretty miserable, especially when combined with the effects of the MCAS. During times like that I usually just meditate in bed or in a recliner, generally not thinking about anything, just breathing, letting the inside and outside become one. I do this almost all of the time.

But other times when I can’t do that for one reason or another, I started to create a little “feel good” list to reflect on. This is something that when I’m not feeling well and I can’t meditate, it helps to remind me that life has generally been very good to me. I think about various things, all of the favorite times I’ve had in my life, meeting my wife, playing baseball, all of the dogs, good vacations, fun with friends, etc.

One thing I hadn’t thought about in a long time that came to mind recently was that when I was 33 years old I worked for a company I called the Evil Empire, and something good happened on my last day there. (That wasn’t their real name, but some of the owners of that company inspired me to give it that name.)

Suzanne, by Leonard Cohen

Suzanne takes you down takes you down
To her place by the river

You can hear the boats go by
You can spend the night forever

And you know the girl’s half crazy
And that’s why you want to be there

And just when you want to tell her
That you have no love to give her

She gets you on her wavelength
And lets the river answer

That you’ve always been her lover

~ Some lyrics from “Suzanne,” written by Leonard Cohen in the 1960s. (In terms of a song I’d like to listen to, I prefer the Neil Diamond version.)

The Trees, Rush alvin June 17, 2019 - 5:25pm

There is unrest in the forest
There is trouble with the trees
For the maples want more sunlight
And the oaks ignore their pleas.

The trouble with the maples
And they’re quite convinced they’re right
They say the oaks are just too lofty
And they grab up all the light.

But the oaks can’t help their feelings
If they like the way they’re made
And they wonder why the maples
Can’t be happy in their shade?

There is trouble in the forest
And the creatures all have fled
As the maples scream “Oppression!”
And the oaks just shake their heads.

~ from The Trees, by Rush

I would rather have questions that can't be answered than ... alvin June 16, 2019 - 2:32pm

“I would rather have questions that can't be answered than answers that can't be questioned.”

~ Richard Feynman

Tiger Eyes, by Judy Blume

I’m surprised that nobody I know knows the story Tiger Eyes, either the book by Judy Blume or the movie based on the book.

Probably the main theme of the book is about people who are afraid. Presumably they’re afraid of dying, and the result is that they’re afraid of living. Meanwhile, a teenage girl who has good reason to be afraid encounters these people who are afraid of life, and eventually realizes that a fear of life is no way to live. Despite a horrific thing that has happened in her recent past, she makes a conscious decision to live her life.

Sinner’s Prayer lyrics (song by Sully Erna) alvin June 16, 2019 - 2:00pm

To love the right,
Yet do so wrong.

To be the weak,
Yet burn to be so strong.

Go rider, although your ride has been through lies.
Go rider, see your soul through the devil’s eyes.

Two horses in Kentucky alvin June 15, 2019 - 8:35am

Two horses in Kentucky, June 1, 2019.

The real you is timeless and beyond birth and death

“The real does not die, the unreal never lived. Once you know that death happens to the body and not you, you just watch your body falling off like a discarded garment. The real you is timeless and beyond birth and death. The body will survive as long as it is needed. It is not important that it should live long.”

~ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj