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Dream of the night sky and a distance classroom

Had a fun dream overnight. At first I was laying here in my bed and having a hard time falling asleep, but at some point it switched to me laying on the floor, in the living room area but near the kitchen. Someone was in the kitchen, but it’s twelve hours later now and I can’t remember who. For a long time I laid there uncomfortably, thinking I was awake, but I was only awake in a lucid dream.

Then I felt the usual sensation that’s hard to describe — like you can feel that something is about to happen — and I was pulled away and out through the front wall of the apartment. I was flying, or at least levitating, looking up at the night sky. It was beautiful, and I could have stayed there for a long time.

Then I was pulled away again, eventually approached a tree, and then landed. Wherever this was, there was a building, and a number of other people were also arriving at the same time. We went inside, and a slightly older woman was trying to usher us into a room. It felt like it was some sort of classroom and she was going to teach us something.

Unfortunately I was rapidly whisked away and woke up in my bed. It was all a good time, but seeing the night sky like that was particularly amazing.

Invictus, by William Ernest Henley alvin June 23, 2019 - 9:47am

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever Gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance,
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years,
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Spirits are very fragile

“Spirits are very fragile. Easy to break, but not impossible to repair.”

~ from a Monk episode

To complain is your nonacceptance of what is

“To complain is (your) nonacceptance of what is. When you complain, you make yourself into a victim. When you speak out, you are in power. So change the situation by taking action or speaking out. Leave the situation or accept it; all else is madness.

If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options:

  • Remove yourself from the situation
  • Change it
  • Accept it totally

If you want to take responsibility for your life, you must choose one of those three options. Then accept the consequences. No excuses. No negativity.”

~ Eckhart Tolle, The Power Of Now (slightly edited by me)

Never underestimate the potential effect of a kind word

Found a note today that I wrote on December 24, 2005. I noted that a friend went out of their way to wish me a Merry Christmas, and it was the nicest thing to happen recently and I never wanted to forget it. Reading it tonight made me smile again. Never underestimate the potential effect of the simplest kind word or act.

Patrón distillery tours (Guadalajara, Mexico) alvin June 20, 2019 - 7:52am

Here are two good articles on taking a tour of the Patrón distillery in Guadalajara, Mexico, one from traveldistilled.com and a second from distillerytrail.com. (This post is inspired by a tequila discussion with one of my nieces at another niece’s recent wedding.)

A feel-good list (for those very sick days)

These days I generally feel very good, but as I go through some of these medical treatments they can make me feel pretty miserable, especially when combined with the effects of the MCAS. During times like that I usually just meditate in bed or in a recliner, generally not thinking about anything, just breathing, letting the inside and outside become one. I do this almost all of the time.

But other times when I can’t do that for one reason or another, I started to create a little “feel good” list to reflect on. This is something that when I’m not feeling well and I can’t meditate, it helps to remind me that life has generally been very good to me. I think about various things, all of the favorite times I’ve had in my life, meeting my wife, playing baseball, all of the dogs, good vacations, fun with friends, etc.

One thing I hadn’t thought about in a long time that came to mind recently was that when I was 32 years old I worked for a company I called the Evil Empire, and something good happened on my last day there. (That wasn’t their real name, but some of the owners of that company inspired me to give it that name.)

Suzanne, by Leonard Cohen

Suzanne takes you down takes you down
To her place by the river

You can hear the boats go by
You can spend the night forever

And you know the girl’s half crazy
And that’s why you want to be there

And just when you want to tell her
That you have no love to give her

She gets you on her wavelength
And lets the river answer

That you’ve always been her lover

~ Some lyrics from “Suzanne,” written by Leonard Cohen in the 1960s. (In terms of a song I’d like to listen to, I prefer the Neil Diamond version.)

The Trees, Rush

There is unrest in the forest
There is trouble with the trees
For the maples want more sunlight
And the oaks ignore their pleas.

The trouble with the maples
And they’re quite convinced they’re right
They say the oaks are just too lofty
And they grab up all the light.

But the oaks can’t help their feelings
If they like the way they’re made
And they wonder why the maples
Can’t be happy in their shade?

There is trouble in the forest
And the creatures all have fled
As the maples scream “Oppression!”
And the oaks just shake their heads.

~ from The Trees, by Rush